Warning This is a dangerous thought pattern, what I would change if I could

I know that we are suppose to live just for today because yesterday is gone and we can't predict the future....but if I could go back....

I would give more hugs and say I love you a billion more times.
I would be the big sister I should have been.
I would treat my mother with respect.
I would not start smoking, drinking, or using drugs.
I would not have dropped the charges the first time.
I would not have beat up that house parent which got me kicked out of the best place I ever knew.
I would stay in school, go to homecoming, go to prom, and graduate.
I would be true to myself and others.
I would hold out for true love.
I would be there.
I would hold on to loved ones while they were here.
I would say what I mean and mean what I say.
I would let go.

But since I can't go back I guess I need to work on what I can do today, besides if it wasn't for all the moments I wish I had done differently, I wouldn't be who I am, where I am, or with the people I am now.