Leave Out All The Rest

"I dreamed I was missing, you were so scared but no one would listen, cause no one else cared. After my dreaming I woke with this fear, what am I leaving when I'm done here. So if you're asking me I want you to know....When my time comes forget the wrong that I've done, help me leave behind some reasons to be missed and don't resent me when you're feeling empty..keep me in your memory leave out all the rest...LEAVE OUT ALL THE REST" Linkin Park

I grew up hearing that when a person dies we are not suppose to talk ill of them again and that we are suppose to only remember the good. With some it is easy enough to do, but sometimes hurts are too great to just forget. When my mom died, for a while I only remembered how wonderful she was and how much she loved us all. But that faded a few years ago when I remembered all the bad that outweighs the good. I have decided that I don't want to leave behind unresolved hurts when I go. I don't want those who love me to go through what I do. It is when people die and leave behind unfinished business that their loved one are unable to let go. I know that I have caused alot of wreckage during my many many years of using not only drugs and alcohol but people too. I thought that no one else's feelings mattered to me, I prided myself in not caring...but I do care and I always have. I am about to start making amends...I made my list of people I owe amends to in the last step and I have been procrastinating on getting to making the amends. I think I am ready to pick the step back up, I have to clean up the hurts I have caused in the past and then not cause hurts in the future. If I forget someone, I really hope that they can Leave Out All The Rest!